Beyond the Shadows

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2012-01-11T23:09:00.000+08:00

古晋，在不停地下雨。。。
我，在不停地吃，总算吃了古晋kolomee, laksa, kueh chap, tomato kueh tiaw, 还有sugar bun! =D 和无数次破例的宵夜.. =.=
最近，也在不停地看桐华的小说，都是步步惊心惹的祸！！
还有今天，就在不停地洗碗，全家的碗碟汤匙筷子叉和杯子都被我洗光了。。。
耽搁了许久的正事，我什么时候才可以认认真真地做啊！！

Recent ...

2012-01-08T22:04:00.000+08:00

Christmas eve at Pavilion --
Traveled so far just to have a our dinner and take some photos, and it was just because of our reluctance to hide ourselves at home. >.<

New Year at MidValley --
My first lunch of 2012, at Italiannies. We were cheated by its Set Lunch Promotion. =/

First day at Kuching --
Drinking with LamFung. Oh it is my pillow case. =)

Someday at somewhere --
Three RED PINEAPPLES on the tree. Now I see my new year mood. @.@

幼稚

2011-12-28T13:31:00.000+08:00

曾经，我很幼稚，幼稚到在送朋友贺年卡前，都会先确认他们是否会回送。
答案“会”的人才会收到我的贺年卡。
不过，那年也是我收到最多贺年卡的一年。（虽然都是回送的。）
所以说，偶尔幼稚一下，也不是坏事！=D

Oh shyt!!

2011-12-13T18:33:00.000+08:00

Shit happened!!
Just a simple thing, wtf how could I forget it??!!!!!!!!!!!!
Totally a mess!!
F!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CLOSE THE WINDOW BEFORE GOING OUT!!!
Plant it into my mind now!!
=((((
Oh I have no bed to sleep on tonight, shit!! =(
Yea I hate raining from now onwards...

Hi Barney!!

2011-12-11T18:49:00.000+08:00

My new target: 7 seasons of HIMYM!

Estimated completion period: few months to 1 year (ok, I know I'm slow..><)

It will be legendary!!!=)

Little cute things

2011-12-09T23:45:00.000+08:00

A handmade cat from Ling Chee!!

A black bear from Ling Chee too!!

The Nippon Paint keychain from Taigong!!

The Malacca cat from Taigong too!!

Find the cats =D

2011-12-03T23:30:00.003+08:00

Funny task...=D

Where is the meow meow??

And this one, find the frog!! =D

I'm DONE!

2011-11-28T10:18:00.000+08:00

Say bye to Salonpas!! Say bye to Wellness MidValley!!
=)))

Now, back to my fyp...
Monday BLUEee...
=(((

Emo-ness

2011-11-09T00:08:00.002+08:00

Oh NO!!! Time flies...
I have wasted weeks in KL without doing things I planned...=(

Oh NO!!! Time does fly...
I am already 22 years old now...
No more behaving like a kid.
Have to think mature, act mature...=(

I am Salonpas girl

2011-11-07T01:39:00.001+08:00

From a Horlicks girl, to an ice-cream girl, and now I am turned into a Salonpas girl...@@
Done two days, and two more days to go...
Holishyt...=(

Random

2011-11-03T15:27:00.003+08:00

狮子座常常口是心非，想拒绝却开不了口，朋友挺多，但真正懂TA的不多；

狮子不喜欢欠别人，即使欠了，或许在别人不知的情况下就慢慢还清了；

狮子也不喜欢别人欠TA，这是一种平衡；

狮子不喜欢主动联系别人，但绝不是不在乎，

狮子可以很安静，也可以很疯癫，不要觉得TA没心没肺，TA只是对很多事看得很开.

Wootz...I don't believe all these horoscope thingyss...but I like the descriptions here... and of course the lioney-cat...=D

Girls' Herstory

2011-10-14T15:39:00.000+08:00

At the age of 17 =)

At the age of 18 =)

At the age of 19 =)

At the age of 20 =)

At the age of 21 =)

At the age of 22 =)

Girls, keep it, until I have to say "At the age of 80 =)".

四代同堂

2011-10-13T15:07:00.002+08:00

Fuh.....

2011

2011-01-15T23:11:00.004+08:00

Ok...Finally I am blogging again...>.<

Well, I won't have any update about the final conclusion for my internship, I don't plan to write it anymore.. Reason? Emm...Hehe... I am just too LAZY...>.< A lot of things happened from week 8 to week 13, too many things that trigger my utmost laziness. Sigh...
Overall, I like Penang, I like Altera, I like everything and everyone there. Thank you for bringing me such wonderful three months. =)

This post is about my targets in 2011, just want to have a written evidence for me to reflect in 2012... -_-

1. VIOLIN VIOLIN VIO VIO VIO LINNNNN......... Oh yeah... This little troublesome thingy is here again. Surprisingly I haven't given it up yet, **ehem...actually did give up for more than half year.how shameful!**
Grade five, seems to be the harderst and furthest thing to me... (of course this is not my 2011 revolution >.<).

So, the first step, I want to practise it for at least 1 hour, EVERYDAY. Aww... It seems that I have set an extremely hard target for myself... T.T

2. Marathon!!! I am in love with it after PBIM... =)

I have to salute my bravery, that I have registered for two runs in KL... Haha. It is mainly to force myself to keep running, to keep this healthy lifestyle. Bareno 10km and Energizer 21km... They won't be too hard for me, right?@.@ I hope so... I will complete the first 21km in my life, this coming April... o.o

3. Japanese Language~~~ Err...I have level 2 qualification, theoretically... Practically, I know my standard...=( I don't want to be the attended-courses-but-gained-nothing type...Hmm...but self study, can I? Am I determined enough? haha!! =(

4. French Language... level 1 qualification (theoretically too).. I don't want to waste the effort that I put on it last time... But it is quite hard to study on my own... especially the pronounciation... My tongue just can't turn that way... >.<

5. I want to sleep before 12am everyday...and wake up at 7am...hehehe...It sounds simple, but even for today, I don't think I can make it. It is already 11pm now...I have 1 more hour to go, and a lot of things yet to be done... Hoho...Excellent, I am setting this target for fun... >.<

Emm...Hopefully, hopefully, hopefully... by the end of 2011, I am reading this post with smile, a proud smile. =D

My internship -- 7th week conclusion

2010-11-18T20:01:00.003+08:00

Penang, I have a totally different lifestyle here... =D

Sleep by 11.30pm, wake up by 6.15am (including weekends). >< It has been such a long time that i can wake up after 8am...><

Weekends, just a little too much activities for me, such an introvert girl...lol. I enjoyed all the hanging out though, just have to sacrifice my sleeping time.=X And, always over my budget...>.<

Join PenangBridge 10km run... Try all the ways to improve my stamina..@.@

BukitJambul hiking, from 40minutes to 20minutes, and finally i could make it to 12minutes...really unbelievable...hoho.

Jogging, from 2km to 4km, to 6km, and finally i could make it to 9.8km in 1.5hours. What does this mean? I will be able to get the medal in the run? Will I? >.<

I am never so good in sport...T.T

After this, 10km Penang Starwalk is coming, and I am going for it, too...@.@ When submitting our registration forms, caught by a reporter to take photos... a lot of photos...>.< I thought our faces will be on the newspaper (quite excited.lol.), but..didn't make it. We are not attracting enough...

Altera, so far so good. =D Looking forward to its back-to-school dinner next friday. I am just curious about how my collagues will costume themselves. For me, low-profile costume will do.hehe.

Time flies... Just getting used to the life here, I am leaving soon. Less than 1.5months here, what else should be done but is not done yet? I have to really appreciate the remaining period now. I know, I won't be what I am now after I back to KL.

Oh ya, I have cut my hair short, with tears...T.T

The most expensive hair cut in my life, RM55. >< I miss my long hair (although it was not very long). ><

The first time, in ZOO =D

2010-10-10T15:27:00.000+08:00

Finally, my dream came true, I have been in ZOO!!! What a memorable day in my life, 021010. =D

A very smart look huh? Remind me of the legend of the guardians, do they look alike?

GL warned me when I was taking this picture, said: Later it jumps up to bite you!! Well, can a turtle jump? I doubt it...lol.

The blurness of this picture made these cats look more alike to tigers...haha.

Let me ter-think of the timid bear shown in 1 japanese show in facebook -- the bear that is afraid of its wife. XD

GL looked very happy with the fish...hehe.

Fatty...don't keep sitting there, exercise more lar!!!

They look exactly the same, i mean both are having long neck...hehe.

Finally I saw rabbits, GL!!!

Maybank = harimau!! Good one! =)

Petronas = badak sumbu?? tak sepadan pun...

Is it a character in Happy Tree Friends?=.=

Oh yeah!! Finally I can proudly shout out, I Have Been In Zoo!!! =D =D =D
**Feel like want to get a good camera....>.<**

My internship -- First week conclusion

2010-10-08T23:20:00.008+08:00

To make my blog not an emo blog, I should share something sounds more grateful, probably?lol...=)

The first week, my not-so-bad internship experience in Altera.=)

Hmm.... It may sound odd, that one of my favorite things in Altera is my seat...haha.

Unexpectedly satisfying, in term of its privacy and space, and the location. =D

I was not looking nice in this photo, but.. suan le... It's special, with Altera jacket, and with my yellow stocking...><

Oh, I shall buy few pairs of stockings this weekend.><

First day. there was a big hamper on my table already. =)

All the engineers here are much younger than what I thought (I was expecting there would be a lot of uncle auntie here...lol.). Not much generation gap at the moment... haha. Some people said I am 16 years old XD, some people said my habits are as mature as their's ><

Hmm...I like the flexibility of the working hour. I like the club house **played football yesterday, tried the massage chair and car racing today...

***I want to 'tuk' pool lar....>< It's occupied everytime...haiz.><

Oh ya, one cup of hot Ricco every morning is really wonderful...=P

Hmm...I should try the gym next time...need to buy sport shoes...><

Learning quite a lot of things at the moment, just not sure whether it's applicable in the future or not.><

Altera, so far so good. I think I will not regret choosing here...Ooppss, I should re-consider whether to say this or not after three months. Haha.

放弃了

2010-09-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

这个学期，我放弃了的东西还真多。算算看，最让我痛心的，还是我的小提琴。。。唉！

你有在哭吗？都生灰尘了。。。

曾经，我花了多么多心血，金钱，时间，在它身上。我也想不通，为什么我可以放弃得那么简单呢？

让我辛苦了好一阵子，这对没什音乐细胞的我来说是一个很大的安慰呀！！

不，不行，不可以就这样放弃！我还想着至少要grade5呢！！

槟城回来后，一定要加紧练习。。。决定了！！！

Rice crackers...=.="

2010-09-15T14:28:00.002+08:00

OMG!!! I have finished this whole package of rice crackers in one shot... (ten small packages with two crackers each) ...This is the second time this week... Exam a!! You make me into a RICE CRACKERS maniac!!>.<

Feeling guilty for expanding my tummy...T.T

@#$%

2010-09-15T04:51:00.002+08:00

Every after-exam, I would say this word to myself...WTH!!!

Sleepless night, accompanied by dramas....WTF!!!

悲惨篇

2010-09-08T18:37:00.002+08:00

读书记：
良心和愧疚心的驱使下摸摸摸到凌晨却不知道自己读了些什么，一悲！
到了半夜终于受不了开始追追追看连续剧三四个小时，二悲！
追过瘾了想读书时眼睛却已睁不开，三悲！
第二天想早起读书睁开眼睛时却已经是下午一点了，四悲！
要开始读书时却不自觉地一直refresh着facebook虽然没有东西好看，五悲！
想去utar独自发奋却没有一次成功睡得醒赶上utar bus，六悲！
混混谔谔地过了半个星期，头脑里装的全都还是草。。。终极悲！

茫茫。。。

2010-08-11T23:30:00.002+08:00

这个十月开始，为了我的英藤式，我将到槟城呆三个月。。。
好多东西要烦，真是一波还未平息一波又来侵袭。。。船到桥头，真的会自然直吗？
奥特拉，我的选择，会让我后悔吗？

Happy Birthday to ME

2010-08-09T17:44:00.004+08:00

Thank you to MY SON, MR. LOW PROFILE, MY BU, MISS I-TING & MISS HOOI LING & MISS GAIK SIM & MISS LI TING, MR. LAU CHIH YUNG, MR. KIEN LOON & MR. KHAI CHIAH & MR. HER SHENQ & MR. ZI XIN & MR. QIANG & MR. KEK for the presents. I love all of them and I will appreciate them... Thank you very muchie!!! A huge fly kiss from me.. MUAKZ.... haha...

And of course, for my birthday celebration, you guys had successfully given me an unforgetable 21st birthday, I will remember all of you definitely...LOL. Especially the hands that pushed me into the cold swimming pool at 1AM >.<. But, still, thank you for coming. =) WEI CHYI, HER SHENQ, JOJO, I-TING, HOOI LING, ZI XIN, KHAI CHIAH & CHIH YUNG, and VINCENT!!! =D

Lastly, thank you to MR. KWANG GHEE LEE for thinking so hard to make me happy when things did not go well. You are just too XXXX and XXXXXX. =D

Home ^.^

2010-02-14T15:26:00.002+08:00

--My living room--

**I have spent four days to clean up the whole house...huh huh!! >.< But i'm satisfied with the result basically.^.^

**My reunion dinner...None of them was cooked by me...LOL

**My Japanese pig...=)

January- A ponderable month

2010-01-31T22:25:00.004+08:00

1.Countdown for 2010

It was all started from countdowning at Sungei Wang with chihyung,his sister,sharon n i...This was the 1st time count down at kl with all the sprays n whistle...a crazy but yet amazing night...=)

Hmm...Genting==>BarCelona==>SgWang... What is the next?

2.Outing with my beloved ex-roommates

It's time for our annual dating finally...hehe...The very rare opportunity for me to go out with make-up, dress and high heels...haha.

The 1st day ~~ Shopping at Timesquare+SgWang, rushed to MidValley, had Rm20++ Korean food as dinner (T.T), and finally my BaskinRobin...wakaka...

The 2nd day ~~ Shopping at Timesquare (due to waking up late...swt...)

The 3rd day ~~ Ice-skating at Sunway... I had fallen down for twice... T.T sakitnya...haiz...

The 4th day ~~ Sing k at Redbox... Basically it's not my activity...lol...

Conclusion ~~ Both of us were successfully broken... Ate maggie for few days lar...haiz...

**The only imperfection is that MooiLan could only join us for few hours...next time must spend more time with us ya...^^

3.Workaholic

I had been ice-cream girl for 3weeks, 6days...haiz...working alone is kinda sienz lor... plus all the promoters around me were aunties... I'm not good in communicate with them lar...PlzZZzz... Luckly for the last week, i knew a girl who is almost the same age with me...Time was passing quite fast for that 2days...lol.

Wall's Vienetta...I'm kinda phobia about it already...>.<

4.Roboneering exhibition

OMG~~ I was one of the MC for this event, partnered with Vincent... The first time of being an MC... I'm quite satisfied with how i did basically, in retrospect... It's not a success, but not a failure too...^^

5. Liting's birthday

First of all, what I wanted to say is that I was mentally tortured by this birthday girl started from few days before her bithday...Haiz...Haiz...Liting, "no point!! no point!!"... T.T But, once a year, i didn't mind lar, as long as all of us enjoyed it... Lol... Singing k at Redbox...Again, this is not my activity... huh huh...

We don't really have lot photos that day...din't take photo with gene,mah,loy,sharon,gem,selly,steven,jason...

6.Kam's birthday

Ah Kam 21st birthday... He invited almost the whole 3e gang to attend his birthday party at Cheras, a very heart-warming party... The food there was very delicious, which had caused me to eat non-stop...Lol... I urgently need to lose weight already...

**I haven't got any photo from others yet...>.<

三部电影

2009-12-28T19:07:00.001+08:00

难得一个星期内在戏院看了三部电影，值得纪念一下。。。呵！

第一部，十月围城--

一部值得在戏院欣赏的电影，虽然比我预期中的稍嫌逊色了点，但不能怪它，因为我对它的期望太高了。。。呵！

基本上，整部片，我都很满意，只有甄子丹的牺牲方式。。。=。=||| 我怎样都无法认同。。。=。=||| 他为什么不可以用刀啊。。。丢东西啊。。。之类的，偏偏要用自己的身体去撞那匹马呢？？死得完全不值得呀！还有点好笑呢。。。=。=|||怪怪地。。。

另外，很多人不喜欢黎明的刘公子，我倒认为还不错，只是有一点，就是他从一开始的栗米烫发型，突然在冲凉后就变成了离子烫。。。幽默。。。=。=|||

还有，最后时，其实那个重光可以不用死的。。。奈何还是避不过啊。。。悲！

第二部，Avatar--

说真的，这部戏还未上映前，看了预告片，完全不想看，因为我觉得这是来骗小孩的戏，还有我很不喜欢那些蓝色人（就是avatar啦！）后来是在朋友的威逼下才去看的。。。哇！！结果，大家都知道啦！原来这是那么精彩好看过瘾的。。。很创新。。。让人眼前一亮的感觉。

但就有一点，我有点难消化。。。就是男主角和女主角的异种恋，想象不到男主角是一怎样的心态爱上她，和她。。。的。>.< 可能是我思想太狭窄吧！哈！

第三部。。。刺陵--

*咳* 我可以说吗？可以把我内心想的都大声说出来吗？说出来会被杰伦迷和志玲迷打吗？真的可以说吗？不管了，我忍不住了！！“这是一部烂片！！！！”

呼！爽了！！^.^ 对于这套，只有四个结论：

1。剧情老套

2。男女主角演技完全不行

3。整套戏都在靠曾志伟在搞笑撑场

4。周杰伦一直在耍帅，虽然他的造型一点都不帅。

以上言论纯属个人观点，不赞同者请不要不爽。。。^.^ 以和为贵。呵！

Testing 123

2009-12-16T15:52:00.001+08:00

Nothing to do at home, so my mood came.... Oh yeah... Let's try with my fake eyelashes... Since i never tried to wear it before... Hehe... So excited ya...

My equipmentsss~~~

The results~~~

Since this is the first time, so basically I'm quite satisfied with the effect... Hehe... Btw, fake eyelashes are really super 难搞...

Horlicks Ho Ho Ho

2009-12-08T13:23:00.005+08:00

Last time, i liked to take the sample drinks, food, ice-cream at supermarket/hypermarket to eat, since it's for free mar...haha. Now, I become the one who deliver those samples -- Horlicks! ! =.="

*done for four days in two weeks... Ganbatte, for the sake of money...haha!*

1. It's quite fun, because two people jaga a booth -- Hooi Ling and I for the first week; I-Ting and I for the 2nd week; (I'm the most rajin in grabbing $$...) So we can chit-chat for the whole day...

2. Won't feel hungry, as we can drink as much Horlicks as we want, no limitation... And also take other samples, the other sampling promoters will give extra extra for us...

3. Sunday morning, we were late, and screw by our agent... =.="

4. But, our client said both of us were very good in promoting, so i think it can cover our lateness...gua?

5. A little kid called me AUNTIE... How sad... T.T

6. An auntie said I am leng lui, but ask me to do orthodontics (teeth bracelet)... haiz...

This coming weekend, two more days in Giant... Hopefully don't make any trouble...huh!!

17岁时。。。

2009-11-26T17:56:00.004+08:00

脑海中突然浮现17岁时的一个念头，一个几乎被完全遗忘的念头。。。很少人知道我曾经有这个想法吧，毕竟说起来会有点丢人。+ —— + |||

女追男，有那么难吗？那时就在想，如果18岁生日过后，我还是单身的话，就主动去追一个来吧。。。哈哈！那时的我，真的比现在的我勇敢得多呢！

但想深一层，也有点好笑。如果我真的要去追一个人，我会选谁呢？我会采取什么行动呢？不可能要我买束玫瑰花送他吧？写情书吗？那我会不会落得像**恶作剧之吻**中湘琴的下场呢？

留下好多想象空间！= 。。=

但，说真的，就算那时真的有必要，我也不觉得我敢付之行动的啦！我是乌龟。。。T 。T

No title --

2009-11-25T15:58:00.003+08:00

Sick sick sick...

Feel like something has stucked at my throat, and i can't really talk... I've lost my voice completely... T.T T.T My voice now has become too sexy to be heard, so better don't talk to me in these few days...

Just finished watching **One Litre of Tears recently... Wah... Really gan dong dao.... >.< heart-warming and touching. And it makes me start to wonder, how only can we don't waste our life? We possess health, so actually we do have the most important thing in our life already. But why nobody wil ever appreciate it? Just because we never lose it?

Slightly addicted to e-book recently, don't need to spend $$ and yet can read whatever books that i like... hehe. Reading **Time Traveler's Wife (by Audrey Niffeneger) and **Twilight (by Stephenie Meyer) at the same time... (a little bit confused between both stories sometime. =.=") But honestly, both are equally nice, and easy to understand too...

*There are four books in total for Twilight series... When only can I finish all of them? I'm a slow reader after all... =.=" *

Movie Movie Movie

2009-11-15T23:59:00.003+08:00

Not fated to watch movie in cinema recently...

Haiz...T.T

Yesterday, wanted to watch Poker King... But, when we rushed to KLCC at 12.30am, the cinema's counter had already closed... Sienz liao...

And then, today, wanted to watch 2012... But, suddenly got a job offer... So i was forced to ffk my friends... Now, almost all of them have watched it already. I'm the leftover... Sienz liao...

Haiz... Want so much to watch a movie suddenly... T.T

给闲空的人：我的自述？？

2009-11-04T00:30:00.004+08:00

才发现，facebook & email 外，blog 也有这玩意儿。。。>.<

1. 大名 :: 钟佳秀

2. 生日 :: 07/08/89

3. 谁传给你的 :: 林奥义

4. 生日想拿到什么礼物 :: 好的小提琴？哈哈！

5. 最近压力大的事 :: 没有耶。。。最近很清闲。^.^

6. 想做的事 :: 充实生活。。。

7. 有没有喜欢的人 :: 感情方面的话，没有。hehe...

8. 跟谁出去最幸福+快乐 :: 家人朋友

9. 如果你跟朋友吵架了,你会怎么做 :: 和解。。。

10. 最想和别人去那里 :: 出国。。。日本或法国。。。

11. 圣诞节想做什么 :: 去玩！！^.^

12. 最想和谁庆祝圣诞节 :: 朋友。。。（家人没庆祝）

13. 最近在做什么 :: 三天读书四天当猪。=.="

14. 有几个兄弟姐妹 :: 两个哥哥一个姐姐

15. 最近喜欢的一首英/华语歌 :: Life is wonderful

16. 喜欢什么颜色 :: 紫色

17. 上厕所会不会冲水 :: 当然会啦！

18. 喜欢男还是女生:: 男生啦！

19. 最想大大声说什么 :: 所有烦恼都散一边去！！！

20. 半夜敢不敢上厕所 :: 依当时膀胱的忍耐程度。。。@.@

21. 你现在最恨谁 :: 没有

22. 现在喜欢做什么 :: 做废材。。。

23. 睡相好不好看 :: 不知道。。。没看过。

24. 现在的时间 :: 1145

25. 是否厌恨传给你这卷子的人 :: 不会啦！

26. 体重多少 :: 45kg

27. 今天天气 :: 算好吧！

28. 如果忙完了你最想做什么 :: 睡觉

29. 失眠了会怎样 :: 一直逼自己睡。。。不过很少会失眠，超爱睡觉。

30. 你晚上睡觉会不会尿床 :: 不会啦！

31. 你晚上睡觉会不会流口水 :: 不清楚耶。。。

32. 你有没有吃过宵夜 :: 不常。。。

33. 近期开心的事 :: 平平。。。

34. 自由对你来说重要吗 :: 重要！不过一直都很自由。。。

35. 你觉得在朋友当中谁最性感 :: 男女都性感。。。

36. 你觉得你比较聪明还是笨 :: 笨！

37. 你比较喜欢爸爸还是妈妈 :: 都爱。。。

38. 你现在最想看到谁 :: 家人吧！

39. 你喜欢看戏吗 :: 喜欢。

40. 你敢向你讨厌的人说我恨你吗 :: 不会，会发挥忍功！

附加问题::

你打算几时结婚啊 :: 看心情。。。看对象。。。

你喜欢你的生活吗 :: 喜欢。。。

相信塔落牌吗 :: 中立。

睡觉前所做的事情 :: 胡思乱想！

你的偶像 :: 没有。。。

你喜欢的季节 :: 除了夏天。我会见光死。。。

最想去的地方 :: 日本法国。。。

最讨厌怎样的性格的人 :: 自以为是，自我中心，讲一套做一套。

你会抽烟吗 :: 不

你会喝酒吗 :: 偶尔

你常哭吗 :: 超少。。。

你常笑吗 :: 常常。。。

想睡到几点 :: 睡到自然醒就好。

朋友和情人你会选谁 :: 都要。。。

1. 机会+命运你会选谁 :: 都要。。。

2. 你很自恋吗 :: 有一点。。。吧？

3. 你有穿耳洞吗:: 有。

4. 喜欢吃冰吗 :: 喜欢

5. 现在幸福吗 :: 幸福，ptptn可以不用还的话就更幸福。

6. 最在乎谁 :: 家人

7. 房间里最重要的东西是什么 :: 电脑

8. 没有朋友你会怎么做 :: 一个人咯！

* 如果天使给你一个愿望,你想要什么 :: 我关心的人都安然健康。。。

* 这个问题废吗 :: 不会。

* 喜欢那个水果 :: 很多耶！

* 最怕人家问你什么 :: 百无禁忌。

* 喜欢下雪吗 :: 喜欢，有机会一定要去有下雪的地方。

* 下辈子要做什么 :: 太遥远了。到时再想。。。

* 希望再被tag吗 :: 随便，反正没差。。。

* 你喜欢等人吗 :: 还好，看心情。。。

1. 被点到必填，不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷

2. 请老实回答每一问题

3. 不能擅自涂改题目

4. 写完请点你的朋友，不可以不点 ....

所有有空的朋友。。。（会太贪心吗？）给个面子吧。。。互相了解一下嘛！呵呵。。。

Kolo Mee

2009-11-01T22:49:00.003+08:00

Well, just suddenly miss it... my kolo mee...

*Taken during my lunch with dad, on the way to the airport, 20th Oct.*

And, for those who asked me to dabao it for you, here it is!!! Appetizing? Hehe...

PTPTN

2009-10-26T15:56:00.009+08:00

Told by GaikSim today that our PTPTN loans can be converted into scholarships again, which is stated in Budget 2010. How true is it? Is it confirmed? I'm not sure, but I wish that it will become a reality... So that i'll have a target to fight for...

News from The Star Online:

~~http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/10/23/budget2010/20091023161104&sec=budget2010~~

* Conversion of PTPTN loans to scholarships for students who graduate with 1st class honours degree, beginning from 2010. *

"Beginning from 2010", means it's applicable for students who apply it or graduate, after 2010? Need more clarification!!!

Btw, there is still no update in Laman Web Rasmi PTPTN...

Hmm... Should I put too much hope into this?

两种老公两种人生‏‏

2009-10-22T16:28:00.013+08:00

sRead this in an email... Huh... He is so nice, i mean the second husband... ^.^

A:她：“老公, 帮我接杯水呗。”
他：“石头剪子布。谁输了谁去。”
她：“算了, 我自己去吧。”

B:他们坐在一起看韩剧。
她起身。他问“干吗去？”
她：“去接杯水。”
他：“你坐这看吧, 我去给你接。”

女人对男人唯一的要求就是“疼她”。你可以什么都没有, 只要你疼她, 她就有足够的勇气把自己的下半辈子交给你。
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A:他晚上下班, 给她打电话“宝贝儿, 我晚上和朋友出去吃饭。”
她：“你不是答应我陪我逛街的吗？”
他：“改天吧！”
她默默地流泪。为什么每次都是这样？

B:他下班的时候打电话给她:“亲爱的, 别人给我一张奥运会的票。巴西队啊！一会儿我去看球了啊。”
她：“哦。这样啊。好吧。”
他：“怎么不高兴了？”
她：“你忘了, 上周说好今天我朋友和她男朋友请我俩吃饭啊。”
他：“哎呀。对不起亲爱的。我忘记了。那我把票给别人吧。我陪你去吃饭。”
她：“不要了。吃饭可以改天。或者你先去看, 我们等你。”
他：“那不行。答应你的事情必须得做到。再说你自己跟他俩在一起像电灯泡似的, 你肯定不舒服啊”
她：“没事……”
没等她说完。他很强势的告诉她“好了。听我的。你收拾一下, 我一会儿去接你。”

其实女人不是不懂事。只是, 她需要碰上一个懂事的男人。其实, 情侣之间, 是可以互相的。
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A:他：“我晚上出去吃饭了啊。”
她：“几点回家？”
他：“九点之前肯定回家。”
九点半，她：“你怎么还不回来啊？”
他：“十点。肯定回家。”
十一点, 十二点, 一点, 两点……
后来, 她不再打电话催他。
因为她知道, 对于不守承诺的男人, 一切“肯定”都是“未必”。

B:他：“我晚上出去吃饭, 九点之前肯定结束。然后我俩去看电影。”
她：“你能那么快就结束吗？”
他：“放心吧。我答应你了就一定能！”
快到九点的时候。他：“收拾一下吧。我马上就到你家了”

信任, 是在一件一件小事中建立起来的。
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A:她生理期, 身体不舒服。顶着疼痛洗衣服, 收拾屋子。
他坐在电脑前面玩网络游戏。
她干完活。躺在床上。长出了一口气。
他看了她一眼：“宝贝儿, 辛苦了！”然后转过头, 继续玩他的游戏。

B:她生理期, 很难受, 起身准备洗衣服。
他拽住她：“你去床上躺着。我来！”
她：“你会做家务吗？你自己洗过衣服吗？”
他：“不会做可以学着做啊, 以后你身体不舒服的时候。我当然得独挡一面！”

女人需要的不只是甜言蜜语。哄她几句, 她也许会给你一个微笑。但是实实在在的呵护。她会对你一辈子的感恩, 并且会回报给你一个温暖的家。
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A:她给他拿了一包榛子, 然后她去洗衣服。
回来的时候, 榛子已经被他吃得所剩无几。

B:她拿给他一包榛子, 然后自己去收拾屋子。
回来的时候, 她看见电脑前面放了一堆剥好的榛子仁。

女人很感性。她炫耀你对她的体贴, 就好像炫耀克拉钻一样, 这么廉价的买卖。用一点心思就能收获无比的财富。
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A:他说：“你是最好的。”
她问：“我哪好？”
他：“学历高, 能力强, 长得漂亮, 对我又这么好。”
她笑了。

B:他：“你是我所遇到最好的女孩儿。”
她：“我哪好？”
他：“你对身边的每个人都很友善, 很无私。对人对生活总是很感恩。一个人有一颗善良的心, 会让周围的人感觉到温暖。你是我见过最善良的女孩儿。伤害你的人都应该下地狱！”
她哭了。

一个人, 是因为你对他好, 所以觉得你好。一个人, 是因为懂得你的好, 所以想要对你好。幸福的恋人, 首先应该是一对彼此欣赏的知己。

FIVE stars

2009-10-17T22:38:00.004+08:00

I didn't log in my restaurant city for quite some times. Hmm... Honestly, I never think that the decoration of my restaurant is so special, or amazing, or marvelous.... Actually it's not really satisfactory. But, out of the blue... i entered it just now, and found that the rating of it has become FIVE STARS, surprisingly.... Haha. So i must show it in my blog, just to... commemorate it... hehe.hehe...*I know that it's actually not a thing to be proud of...haha!*

Langkaweeeeeee~~~~

2009-10-15T17:43:00.018+08:00

Finally, it's my turn to post this 3-days trip in Langkawi in my own blog, after half month from there.

**29th Sept, 2009, 11.30pm---

Departed from Pudu, 10 of us.

**3oth Sept, 2009

This was the hotel that we stayed for 2nights -- Bella Vista, looked very beautiful from outside, but it was actually quite simple and a little bit old (especially the air con.=.=").

We were very unlucky, in the first day. Firstly, the cable car had been closed for few days for maintenance, my dream to enjoy the sunset and the view of whole Langkawi was broken... Secondly, it was raining for the whole day... Our wretched looks, and the dreadful weather...

The only group photo of our's. *Me, HooiLing(our leng-lui ghost), XiaoMing(our driver & camare man), KienXing(WeiChyi's girl girl), WeiChyi(our boss & organizer), YeeBoon(our bags carrier), ZeKai(the boycotted boy & outlandish-ideas giver), Jacho(the joke maker), AhThong(the great but noisy talker), ZiXin(the crayon shin-chan & first-kiss contributor).

Undeniably the view at Oriental Village was really amazing despite of the continuous rain.

Black Sandwich, or Black Sand Bitch(called by the others)... A disappointing beach...

Anyway, i could finally have this jumping shot on beach...fantastic!!! Btw, because of the angle, we were just like jumping on a normal roadside. =.="

Telaga Durian Berangin, what a weird name. Nothing was so special here, and no durian... =.="

At the sky bridge, nice shot.

Bella Vista at night. Looks like Disney Land? Hehe! Can use this photo to mislead the others next time.

Wow!!Now came to the activities at night-- Truth or Dare. From truth -> dare -> truth -> dare... to dare -> dare -> dare -> ... and ZeKai had provided all those outlandish, funny and exciting ideas... A non-forgetable night. ZiXin, Jacho, Zekai, HooiLing and I...

*1st Oct, 2009

Island hoping. Because of waking up late, we had delayed it for 1hour, lessened our one-hour fun.

First island, Pulau Dayang Bunting. According to local folklore, the barren women will be able to conceive after they bathe in the lake or drink its water. However, is it real? =.="

Ahaa~~this was interesting. A lot of fishes were in the lake, swam across, touched our foot, or bit us softly. Couldn't control myself to scream out at first... It was a really fresh experience.

XiaoMing and ZeKai swam in the lake, enjoyed the splashing cold water. I would definitely try it if there was more time.

This was the third island we went-- Pulau Beras Basah.*Finally, i could see a beach with crytal clear water and fine white sand.* The second island was Pulau Singa Besar, but we didn't go on it, just witnessed the eagle feeding activities on the boat.

I could finally try it-- Banana boat~~ It was very exciting, it was just like riding a horse... up and down, up and down... and, flung into the sea, twice...

ZeKai was the sacrifice, buried in the sand. The flower at the xxx, was the creation of art...Huh~~

Next, it was the Seven Wells. The water glided delightfully from one pool to another, and finally cascaded 90m down into the 7th pool.

This was the Seven Wells Waterfalls. HooiLing had met a special one here...ngek ngek...

This was so called art photo, thanked to jacho. I like this photo...

We had done our shopping that night, and this was my collection of chocolates. It costed me RM80++ in total. =.="""

These were our alchohol... free from duty fee...

2nd Oct, 2009

The last day in Langkawi, we went to the Eagle Square, the most prominent landmark of Langkawi, which was near to our jetty.

It was a scorching hot afternoon. Reluctantly, it was time to leave. Good bye, Langkawi!!

朋友

2009-10-13T15:01:00.007+08:00

刚刚看了很多之前拍的照片，回忆一摞摞地涌了上来。开心的，不开心的。。。都是和一大班朋友一起度过的。朋友，是建筑在缘分，和真心上。。。

再好的朋友，心里都会各自有一些刺，因为某些误会也好，不经意的冒犯也好，或者是一些想不通的心理，总之，刺一种下，就难以拔除。。。这，就是造成朋友间无法真诚相对的其中一个理由吧？有时，还真觉得可惜，但是，我又能改变些什么呢？

谁都不敢剥开心胸，把心里的所有话都拿出来说，来弄清楚。。。也对，这是自我保护的一种，因为谁也不知道，那后果是不是我们承担得起的。。。所以，只好等待，等待着有一天，能学会放下，学会看开。。。

其实，我也知道，朋友不可能是一辈子的，一旦我们结束了人生的其中一个阶段，我们周围的人事物都会无法避免地跟着改变，朋友，也一样。试着努力地维持，但生活圈子不同了，话题也自然地少了。有的已没有再联络，也不敢去勉强。。。只能，珍惜现在还拥有的。

对不起，给所有我曾经伤害过的朋友，我只能说，我不曾是故意的。。。
I'm sorry, genuinely, to all my friends that i have ever hurt before. I can only say, I never mean to upset you...

谢谢你，给所有真心对我的朋友，我只能说，我很庆幸有你们。。。
Thank you, genuinely, to all my friends that do treat me as their true friend as well. I can only say, I'm lucky to have all of you...

命?

2009-10-12T11:09:00.004+08:00

刚和爸闲聊时，他提到我小时候，有人帮我算过命，是贫穷命。。。哇靠！！那么衰？

不过，我选择了，不相信！

如果一切真的早已被注定了，那，我们的人生还有什么意义呢？我们的打拚，我们的努力，又是为了什么呢？

最令我耿耿于怀的是，爸说，那人算了爸的命，只到五十多岁。。。哇靠哇靠哇靠！真想赏那算命师傅一脚。。。爸今年已五十三岁了，还没享受到人生。。。难道都不给他机会享享清福吗？

所以，我还是选择了。。。不相信！！！

不管这些预言，以后灵不灵，准不准。。。总之，现在，我只相信好事，*当给自己一个希望也好*，至于那些不好的，一笑置之吧。。。开心就好。。。

A Boring Day

2009-10-08T18:03:00.007+08:00

Waking up at 9am, looked into the mirror... OMG!! PimpleS pop up at my right cheek again...And it dumped away my wonderful mood for this wonderful morning... *Once again, i hate pimples so much!!!*

Nothing special to do, my laziness has stopped me to do what i planned for my 2-weeks holiday before. (Laziness is always the winner in the battle with rational...huh!!) So, divided my laptop's screen into two part, one for my drama 古靈精探B( 2 episodes today, disappointed. >.< ), while another half for my facebook's games -- CafeWorld and GodGameBigTwo.
**CafeWorld, my newest game in facebook, quite similar with RestaurantCity. Btw, i m so poor in this game, bout $6oo left... WHY? And my food is always not enough for the customers... Just a beginner, maybe...

**GodGameBigTwo, in chinese -- 神来也大老二. Hmm... I think today is not my day, so i have successfully lost all my money (T.T)... and only can continue playing in 试玩区... *ashamed*. I must revenge tomorrow... wakaka!

While sitting in front of my laptop for the whole afternoon, I have finished this 100g Toblerone by myself... Ouch!!! I am so PIG!!! =.="""

Wohoo~

2009-09-25T15:01:00.003+08:00

One more paper...and i will be survived from this study-until-no-day-and-no-night hell... Yes!Engineering Computing!!After you, i am heading to Langkawi!! This will be the 1st time of being in an island...i am so damn looking forward for it (although a lot of ppl ffk, there'll be only 10 ppl going...haiz...)...

And my prison break season 4, i can finally have time to finish up... my heroes season 3, my gossip girl season 1, my bleach eps 100++, my gundam 00 season 2, my 古靈精探 B... I'm coming!!

And finally, my beloved kuching!!! hehe!hehe! *i am so damn high now!!haha!*

Watashi wa fei cai desu!!

2009-09-02T12:12:00.006+08:00

Final exam is just around the corner...and yet I am so lazy, don't hav the motivation at all... be a fei cai everyday...how can i survive in the final exam??T.T

And we have set our own target for the final exam already. If we cannot achieve it, then we'll need to treat the other four to eat a McD-standard meal... 4*RM10, which means i will need to spend about RM40 for the bunga-bunga sekalian if i can't achieve it... aduh!!I won't let such thing to happen!! Don't try to korek money from me...haha!

Please!! I want to be hard working..... And i want to score well for my cs, although i am officially dead for the midterm test and also lab test!!! Aih!! Just hope that miracle will happen!!

Finally, just want to share this photo here, taken in my friend's room. haha!

Random photos

2009-08-25T16:44:00.014+08:00

The most special star formed by us...>.<

Nothing to do in the lab...(no wonder the wires in the lab became lesser and lesser...=.=")

The gay-looked of steven n mingloong...hehe!

The girls with umbrellas...yeng ler!!!

Ce-le-te, u know guitar?don cheat ppl lar...bleh!!!

Do we look like model?haha!

Cat women??hmm...the new version maybe...hehe!(ce-le-te,u like to be the opposite of us hor?)

New hair style??not bad not bad...hehe!

*Studying* >.< (my room....how messy it is...)

Ce-le-te has bought her favorite tomatoes, left it at my house, and went back hometown... HooiLing, Sally and i were forced to finish them....

Ce-le-te,don't bang me for posting this photo, as i posted mine's too....=.="

Awesome?? Genius?? Stupid?? Idiot?? haha! quite an interesting finding from facebook.

Jacho and joseph, both have their different style of... hmm... 'cuteness'...

Antenna girls and boy... our yagi uda can become such a good accessory in posing ya...swt...

GaikSim's hair suddenly emitted a strong electrostatic field...=.="

All followed my style -- duck-mouth... haha! Should i be proud of it?

Omg...gs and i-ting....=.="

Ce-le-te was ss-ing... @.@

Who is more masculine?? Who is more feminine??

Connaught + Pavillion

2009-08-20T15:47:00.006+08:00

It was quite a sudden decision of going to taman connaught pasar malam yesterday night(my first time going to connaught pasar malam.). 2 cars, 8 people. Pasar malam at kl is totally different from those in kuching. All the food are so damn nice, but I still miss the kuching-style pasar malam food so much... kuching-style char kuey, kuching-style rojak, kuching-style kuih melayu(i forget the exact name.swt... ), kuching-style air tebu... All are my favorite food in pasar malam last time... Anyone in kuching now?can you please send those food to me by using pos laju?

We have finished jalan at about 11.30pm... btw, dis pasar malam is really damn long...how tiring it was to walk from one end to the other end then pusing balik again. huh!! The more teribble thing happened after that-- they all suggested to watch movie!!! OMG!!! why was it so teribble? because i was wearing an over-washed t-shirt, sleeping short, and toilet slipper... and... we were heading to Pavillion... SWEAT!!! btw, it was not my first time of wearing so.. ehem... so 'simple' to watch movie as i experienced it once, at Mid Valley... aih!! the only lucky thing is, i din't meet any familiar face there... my image is still terjaga... hehe!

Talking about the movie-- Aliens In The Attic, it's really funny...strongly suggest to those who like comedy. And the last movie i watched before this was Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. Swt...just notice that i din't go to cinema for quite a long time already....

Just for fun-- Differentiation

2009-08-13T16:03:00.007+08:00

A mathematician went insane and believed that he was the differentiation operator. His friends had him placed in a mental hospital until he got better. All day he would go around frightening the other patients by staring at them and saying "I differentiate you!"

One day he met a new patient; and true to form he stared at him and said "I differentiate you!", but for once, his victim's expression didn't change.

Surprised, the mathematician marshalled his energies, stared fiercely at the new patient and said loudly "I differentiate you!", but still the other man had no reaction. Finally, in frustration, the mathematician screamed out "I DIFFERENTIATE YOU!"

The new patient calmly looked up and said, "You can differentiate me all you like: I'm e to the x."

More advanced story:

A constant function and ex are walking on Broadway. Then suddenly the constant function sees a differential operator approaching and runs away. So ex follows him and asks why the hurry.

"Well, you see, there's this differential operator coming this way, and when we meet, he'll differentiate me and nothing will be left of me...!" "Ah," says ex, "he won't bother ME, I'm e to the x!" and he walks on. Of course he meets the differential operator after a short distance.

ex: "Hi, I'm ex"
diff.op.: "Hi, I'm d/dy"

Interesting jokes...copied from a note tagged by a friend in facebook...just want to share it here. Have fun reading it...

坚强的背后

2009-08-12T22:12:00.002+08:00

我，并不坚强，只是个自尊心强所以喜欢装着坚强的普通人。

彭小姐曾经说过，她认为她自己已经够"man"了，但我比她更"man"。。。无言。。。但其实这正是我想给人的印象。。。在人前，我都逼着自己要戴上坚强的面具，我不希望别人看到我软弱的一面。但有谁知道，这面具的背后是一堆堆酸酸的苦楚。。。

有时候，我想哭，心里在想哭出来后我会不会好受一点？但理智却不断地提醒我，不可以哭，我不可以哭！一哭我的面具就会瓦解了！但这坚持，到底是为了什么？就因为心底那高傲的自尊？

我不允许失败的发生，但大大小小的挫折却每日每夜地围绕着我。。。折磨着我。。。渐渐地，我习惯了。。。我放弃了。。。对自己的要求也不再那么高了！开始变得很随便，不那么在意一些事情的成败了。这。。。到底是好事，还是坏事呢？

My birthday 2009 (Part2)

2009-08-08T11:30:00.006+08:00

6th of August,2009...The 2nd part of my birtday celebration, had arrived!
My second cake, and also the only cake that was able to be eaten by me, peacefully.

Thank for them to come to my house...hmm...this is really a BIG surprise.

The family photo:(Boss kacau kacau only...hehe!)

Sharon and i (sweet):

This is my 3rd cake, given by my housemate:(i am still wondering, why is it exactly the same as my 2nd cake?just a coincident or as what kraisorn said: buy 1 free 1!!)

Thanks for Lester, Stanley, Joseph, Steven, Gatelin, Chungsiang and Daniel for coming. Although Lester and Stanley were just come to study, not really for my bithday.hehe! And there was a special performance, by Imran and Boss, which was playing the song 'Happy Birthday' to me by using violin...haha!i think this is the 1st time they performced to someone...so cute...and because of the slowness of their violin, the birthday songs also became very slow...this is the saddest birthday song i have ever heard...

And now, the same event was going to happen soon...my lovely friends were forcing m face to 'taste' the cake, again...They were giving me 2 choices -- i do it myself, or they help me to do it... for me, i never have a choice...

And, this is the consequence, for a birthday girl, again....specially thank to zhiyung..

My birthday 2009 (Part1)

2009-08-08T10:24:00.011+08:00

5th of August,2009, my birthday was celebrated 2days earlier with my bunch of pv10 friends...They din't mention about celebrating my birthday when they asked me to go for dim sum,tying to give me surprise i think...hehe! but actually i guessed it already...everytime they do the same trick to the birthday person...hehe!

The total of us, 23 people... I appreciate all of you who have come for the celebration, genuinely... ^.^ It make me to feel heart-warming and touched for my birthday. Without all of you, my birthday is just nothing.

Zhiyung, Chuanwei, Elly, Mah, Gem, Mingloong, Kevin, Hooiling, Sally, Ahgong, I-ting, Jacho, Kevin's friend, Loy, Simon(Gene's friend), Gene, Liting, Gaiksim, Joseph, Sharon, Steven, Jason....

With the bunga-bunga sekalian...
With all leng zai... wohoo...

Gem tried to cover my face...T.T Loy's mouth looks funny...haha!

They were having exam the next day but still came to support me...hehe!

With gene and kevin , both look innocent...

Steven's expression is really funny...haha! and joseph looks like 'guai pei pei'...

Ah Mah's mouth is so red...and jason's....speechless...hehe!

Elly and Elly...plus Chuanwei...

With sharon, mingloong and zhi yung, all show their duck mouth...

The following was the cake of that night, looked nice? And i have blew the candles for four times, because they had too many requirement to be fulfilled before blowing off the candles, one is to say thank you in 20 different languages (loy, you better kill me!), another is to shout ' KIMOCHI' loudly... waseh... my image has totally ruined that night...

Opps... it tasted nice too... I can see the shape of my face on the cake... Thank to all of you, for pressing my face so hard towards the cake... If not my face won't have the chance to taste this mouth-watering chocolate cake...

And this is the consequence of birthday girl...

Now, I am waiting for the revenge!!Whose birthday is the next?hehe!hehe!

Didaskaleinophobia (School Phobia)

2009-08-04T14:01:00.011+08:00

Hmm...It's an interesting topic...Tragically, I am suspected to have this symptom of anxiety disorder when attending to my university, UTAR... Extremely worry, exaggerated fear, frequent stomach aches, overly clingy, refusing to go to school, difficulty to sleep, having nightmares...

I am constantly facing all those problems recently...What is so horrible about UTAR actually? The assignments, reports or tests??H1N1?? >The fierceness of the lecturers? Or the low-quality of the food in UTAR canteen? Neither one! It's all because of the SCHEMERs around me --- my wonderful 38 friends...

Ehem ehem... I know i surely will be shot kaw kaw after they have read it... especially those four flowerSS... Sigh!! Most of the time, the unfair "battles" between us, are in the condition that 3 vs 1.(hooiling will be keep quiet, she doesn't wish to involve, i think.>.<) Saya MEMBANTAH!!! It's totally an unjustified treatment, a corrupt world... Where is the justice? Where is the faith? Give them back to me, my bunga-bunga sekalian... -- Pang Pang Li Ting, Glue Chiam Gaik Sim, Skeleton Sow I-Ting --(forgive me to mention your names here, i'm just doing what ce-le-te requested.) Finally, thanks for wasting your time to read my grievance. Just let me run riot for a while...swt... It's just a pointless post... Hehe...

给--爸爸

2009-08-02T01:59:00.005+08:00

爸，我从来不曾对你说过任何感性的话，因为我认为这太肉麻了，完全说不出口。但我真的真的有很多很多东西想告诉你，我怕，我再不趁现在，我会随时没机会，毕竟生命是那么的脆弱，我们都不知道明天会发生什么事。。。是吧？

爸，很想对你说，一直以来，你辛苦了！妈在很早很早就去世了。还记得那时候，我看到了泪水堆在你的眼眶里，但你却强忍住，偶然发现我在看你时，就会把脸别开。。。我知道你在撑得好苦。。。一个人，四个还不懂事的孩子。。。

爸，很想对你说，对不起！我不是个很会想的女儿，常令你担心了。我知道你赚钱辛苦，却有常忍不住随便花钱。我知道你担心我一个人在外面生活，却又不会照顾自己。我知道你希望我常打电话回去，我却常忘了。。。我是不孝女，请原谅我所做过令你难过的事。。。

爸，很想对你说，我是真的真的很爱你！你为我们做的一切，我都很珍惜。每天辛苦工作赚钱，回到家还要煮晚餐给我们。现在我们都出来做工或读书了，你还要担心我们生活得好不好，够不够钱花。。。你为我们所牺牲的一切。。。太多了。。。

爸，很想对你说，你真的要好好照顾自己，不要每次只想着我们！现在就只有你和建在家，我其实很放心不下。。。没有一个女生帮忙处理家务，你又加了一个负担。在家的娱乐只有看电视和报纸，现在电视机又坏了，你会闷着了吗？

爸，你一定要，一直一直，都健健康康开开心心的。。。长命百岁。。。给我一个机会，好好地，报答你。。。

Malacca -- memorial trip

2009-07-28T14:00:00.019+08:00

First destination, Mahkota Parade... since all of us were hungry (skip our lunch)...so we decided to eat doughnuts... food that can be got anywhere...

Hmm...the wishing well in Mahkota Parade...for me, it looks like toilet only...

Next, the most famous place in Malacca...

Our dinner, satay celup...It's very famous, and that is why we have queued for about 1hour to get the seats...sigh!!

This was how many batang i have eaten, more than 10...give me a clap....

Next next next, after eating, it's our time to take some pictures, to syok sendiri...at riverside...i also don't know the exact name...

After that, jonker street...the things there are really cheap...i bought necklace and wristlace...hehe!quite satisfied with it...

Then, clubbing at Pure Bar... my 2nd time of clubbing... 1st time of dancing in the club... but... i danced badly...i knew it and i admited it...swt...i din't drink lot and din't get drunk.that is lucky because gene was trying to make us drink with straws...he said it will taste nicer!!=.="luckly din't believe him.

No picture sharing for this...cause all the pictures don't look nice AT ALL...swt swt swt...

The next day, all of us woke up very late (as expected), we only could go to the oldest temple in Malaysia(i think so...=.=") . As the consequence, hooi ling was sick after 'bai bai'... can't blame her, as she is a ghost, it's normal to get sick after entering a temple...

This is our last family photo for malacca trip...

At last, we went to buy some souvenirs and went back to kl... the last thing we ate in Malacca, was cendol....(it's nice!!)

Love Story between My Violin and I

2009-07-24T18:40:00.012+08:00

This is my first violin. And it is not an expensive 1, just costs bout RM280++. But i love it...:)

I wanted to learn violin since i was very young, i always think that people who play violin look very elegant...called "you qi zhi"...but unfortunately i din't have the chance, until last year. When i first saw the promotion about violin course organised by Music Club in my uni, I knew that this was the time for me to move the 1st step, towards a new life with violin... And this is the beginning of our love story...

Haiz...but my mind is too simple...i never realised that Love is so complicated...it's really not easy to play violin with clean and nice sound. However i think i have improved day by day too...just practised with Imran for few new songs just now...they are all songs of anime, especially FF... all are very nice, and i was arised... but i found that it's quite hard for me to read the sheet sometimes, without any basic about music theory... sigh...

I have put quite a lot of effort and $$ to keep our relationship to go on... I wish i can get the same amount of return too... I love you...my dear Violin, can you please love me too??

Japan....

2009-07-21T15:21:00.003+08:00

All of a sudden,gs is suggesting to travel at japan when we are graduated...Wow.i never think about it before, as it requires a lot of detailed planning and...money... However, it's really a wonderful idea.i wish to witness Sakura with my own eyes, i wish to speak Japanese to a genuine Japanese, i wish to be in this country after i have watched so many japanese anime, manga and drama...Undeniably Japan is one of my favorite country... After two and half year, can we make it? I'm not sure, but i start to dream about it...

Sing Kkkkk

2009-07-20T23:46:00.013+08:00

Since i am too lazy to write anything, so let the photos to tell the story... nothing interesting, just singing k...again.T.T (i don't really like it....but all my friends LOVE it...sigh!!!)

opps..cant really c my nose.d flash was too bright.but i like this picture...

Random Variables-- July

2009-07-20T22:33:00.005+08:00

Quite a lot of my friends start to have their own blogs recently. It has urged me to get the feeling of updating my blogs more frequently as well. Hopefully i can do it, not only for short attention span.

A lot of things happened. We have ended, after for more than 2years. Maybe it's just the beginning for another story, or stories... Life is changing all the times.

I am quite surprised that i am still learning my violin, though i have force myself so hard not to give up. I can't really play well, and sometimes it's really discouraged and disappointed, and i am too lazy to practise... All of those things are challenging my determination. However I know i can do it... One thing to be mentioned is, which at least make me to feel better is, my teacher told me that i would be a violin teacher now if i had learnt it since i was young. Wow...this really has motivated me a lot. Thanks...

Hmm...just suddenly find out how ignarant am i, especially in the practical of all the knowledge i have learnt in my course...Sometimes i really wonder, does this course suit me? or do i suit this course?this is not related to my interest or anything else. this is about my ability...i am so so damn weak in applying those theories in the real life examples, where i can only apply it into the tests, exams.... how can i overcome it? miserable...

Being suffered from flu for about 2days already...just came back from the hospital, and it's luckly not h1n1...being quarantined is not what i wish for...i feel so thankful to those who concerned about my sickness...i can feel it, and i really appreciate it. Thank you...

Outing after exam

2009-05-15T22:06:00.009+08:00

This is d only photo i took yesterday...it's funny rite?all of us were trying 2 release our tension aft exam..(we hav been pressured for quite a long long time.)

First destination is red box. sing k? i noe i sing very badly... T.T if it was last time, i would just sit aside, behaved as if being abandoned, n sang for 1 or 2 songs. However, for d 1st time, i kept singing, keep shouting, keep torturing others' ears yesterday...(ya...i m actually quite proud of it..haha!!)maybe...just maybe, there will be one day that i can sing very well...very well that every1 will b surprised and lavish praise on me...then li ting won't squint at me, asking whether i am singing or disturbing... haha!i am just imagining... ==

Second destination is cinema. Unbelievably, we have watched 2 movies continuously, which is the second time i tried it. "Push"--this is about people wif supernatural power, which is filmed at hong kong. It's really unexpectedly.... disappointing. however, the main character, nick (i hav forgotten about the actor's name), is very handsome..i like him.hehe! "X-men-the origin of Wolverine" -- finally, we have watched a good movie... ~.~ but i just don't like the ending...it's too sad.his wife has died, he stands beside her, looks at her, but just can't remember who is she...

Huh… Busy…

2008-07-17T17:16:00.003+08:00

Erm… quite busy recently… but I can’t complaint, because I’ m the one who ‘cari pasal’, make myself as busy as I can… -.-‘

Eating, sleeping, studying, doing assignments, swimming and reading novel… are the normal activities I will do often.

Apart from those, I have looked for a part time job, as a data entree. Get some forms from an office nearby, then key in them at my house… RM0.15 - 0.20 per form. A lot of my friends said that it’s not worth but I still continue doing this. It’s because this job is very free and of course, I won’t give up any opportunity to earn $$ so easily. Hehe!

I have joint violin course… Finally I decided to learn it, after struggling for many years. It was one of my dreams when I was young. I kept thinking of it, kept giving up… because I didn’t have confidence that I can play it well. But now, finally! Though I have been a bit too old, a bit too late…. My violin teacher learnt it since he was 6 years old, he is playing violin for about 18 years already… how many 18-years do I have? Sweat!

Comment allez-vous? Je suis Elly. Hehe! Yeah! Another course that I joint is French language course… (actually I prefer to learn Japanese =.=’) but I can’t really pronounce the French words... its really hard… I have to admit that I’m really a slow learner. Feel sad…

Another one is joining Engineering Society. One of its sub-societies is ROBOCOM. To build robots, it sounds so ‘yeng’. I felt so excited when I just joint it, finally it’s not an impossible mission for me to build a robot anymore, I can do it also. But… disappointingly, I found that I cant really follow their steps, as I’m just in Year1 Sem1 now, I don’t understand what they are doing… it’s too deep for me! It’s still too far away from me. Hopefully I can catch up with them soon… It will be a very useful experience to me next time.

That all about my recent life… Busy? Ya! Empty? No! So basically I am still satisfied with it…Gambate!!

The Five People You Meet In Heaven

2008-07-17T17:11:00.001+08:00

Just finished reading this book….

The author, Mitch Albom, has his own unique definition about ‘heaven’, which is a place to let you to understand all the things happened in your life…

The story begins at the end, with the death of the main character, an ordinary old man--Eddie. He died, but his story never ends. “All endings are also beginnings. We just don’t know it at the time…”

Eddie was meeting five chosen people in heaven. Each of these people played an important role in his life, although he might not even know some of them. In some sense, they influenced his life deeply; they brought special meanings to his life… And now, in heaven, they are here to answer Eddie’s questions- why he lived and what he lived for.

Five people, five memories, five lessons…

However, for me, the most important lesson is about death… We all will die, anytime. We will never know how, when or where we die. We can never fully prepare for it. We can’t do anything to prevent it as well… Just…appreciate what we posses now.

It's hard to look for a roommate...

2008-04-19T13:49:00.007+08:00

Although exam is around the corner, i have no mood to study at all. Aih!!! Its because one more thing is perplexing me, finding a roommate. T.T

Maybe it is the peak season to find roommates now,it seems that every1 is looking for a roommats now. My competition is very high. Aih!! very hard for me... Aih!!

if i can find a roommate, my rental will be at about RM110. however, if i can't, the rental will be RM195, so big difference.. So, the main thing now is, i must have a roommate... But i almost fed up with it already... wu... After posting so many announcements, there is no responde... Help me... wu... Cant imagine that i have to spend over RM200 to my accommodation. T.T

Btw, if you wish to rent a room in malaysia, some useful websites are recommended as below:
1. http://chinese3.cari.com.my/
2. http://www.caribilik.my/
3. http://www.housenotice.com/

however, for me, the websites are useless if you wish to find a roommate to share room with you(from my experience). hehe!

Disappointment, fury, despair…

2008-04-14T21:56:00.001+08:00

I admit, my English is not superior, but it’s not as poor as the mark I get for my coursework mark of the subject English for Communication. For me, it’s unfairness. I do have a strong feeling of being prejudiced by the lecturer. So do my other group members. We don’t know what we have done that makes the lecturer to dislike us, actually we can’t remember that we did anything which offended her before. Why were we worth this kind of low marks? We can’t accept it. I can’t accept it!! It’s unreasonable.

The meeting and the group discussion… For me, I have done them quite well, maybe not extremely well, but I don’t think I can only get half of the full mark… The marks of 5 of us, who were in the same assignment group, are the lowest among all of the others TD students. Am I really this poor in my English? Am I really just worth this low mark? I don’t know. I won’t know. I will never know the answer. The marking scheme is too subjective that everything is controlled by our lecturer. And the lecturer has the power to destroy you anytime as she likes, without reason. I hate it, I really hate it, but what do I hate? I don’t know, since I have no proof that she purposely gave us such low marks also. Maybe I’m just giving myself a reason to escape from the truth of my real English standard. Am I??

I am aiming for the scholarship, but now, it’s hopeless. I can’t get an A for this subject anymore. No matter how hard I try, I won’t be able to get what I wish to get already.

However, bear in mind that, keep a good relationship with your lecturers.

Webpage design

2008-03-29T12:34:00.005+08:00

Finally!! My group (5 girls from td14) has finished our assignment for webpage design. Although our website is not very 'geng' compare to other groups', we really put a lot of effort and time to do it. This is my first website... i feel proud of it. hehe. My website address is http://www.diabetes123.890m.com/. Please go and view it if you are free. Thanks a lot. Hehe.

English, perplexes my life.

2008-03-15T19:56:00.004+08:00

My English is simple, my Chinese is better. But I chose to write my blog mainly in English. I’m perplexing my life, I know. But I just want to improve my English; one of the ways is by exploring more to English. This is also one of my goals of having a blog.

I’m learning to rap an English song recently; for those who know me well, they will surely roll their eyes in disbelief, smack their hands on their foreheads, and shout,”OMG!! Elly will rap??” Yea, I agree that it’s really a rare thing that I will do. The song is ‘lose yourself’ by Eminem, I’m having a hard time now… It’s really hard to rap, who can help me? But someone told me that this can enhance my pronunciations, so I just give it a try, and perplex my life again…

At UTAR, 5 girls, including Karen, Yen, Sin, Sally and I, have taken up a bet with Daniel, we can only speak English with each other, no ‘Bahasa Rojak’ is allowed. Anyone who is caught to speak other language will be fined, RM0.20 for girls and RM1.00 for Daniel. Hiakz Hiakz. It’s actually quite fair as Daniel is English-educated,and 5 of us are enjoying bullying him… hehe! (Daniel, I know that you have my blog address, just not sure whether you will see this post or not. Hopefully you won’t.) But at the same time, doesn’t my life become more and more perplexed? It’s just because of English, English and English!
Imagine the bear is Daniel...

ALZHEIMER'S' Eye Test

2008-03-08T16:50:00.011+08:00

Its very interesting, and it may be very enraging as well.

Count every 'F' from the text below:

FINISHED FILES ARE THE RE
SULT OF YEARS OF SCIENTI
FIC STUDY COMBINED WITH
THE EXPERIENCE OF YEARS...

What is your answer?
3?
WRONG...
The answer is 6...
I am not joking.
You try to count again...until you get the correct answer.

I get this test from my email,it stated that 'Anyone who counts all 6 'F's' on the first go is a genius'.
My answer was 3 as well at 1st.And i kept counting the total number of 'F' for about 3-4times but yet couldn't find the correct number.
Until i stopped,did other things for a while,and looked at it again,then i could see the correct number of 'F' directly...
Does this mean we will see the things we normally can't see after giving ourselves a rest?Maybe...

Lyrics-Wake Me Up When September Ends

2008-03-07T20:47:00.007+08:00

Wake Me Up When September Ends
Green day

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
like my fathers come to passs
even years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends
summer has come and
innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends

The marvel of Technology

2008-03-07T16:16:00.013+08:00

I was really amazed when i first knew this new technology from my email.Just share it here with you.
Can you guess what are them?Look like pens with camera...

But... They are not as simple as that!
Look at the following pictures...

Amazing or not?
These are computer!!Bluetooth technology has been developed so well.Its really incredible!!With only a pen-sized instrument,we can do all sort of things that a computer can normally do...Our current computer will soon be replaced...
I want to get one too!(just if i have too much money.Hehe!)

Anime-Gundam 00

2008-03-06T21:00:00.014+08:00

Watching the anime 'Gundam 00' recently.Only 1 word I can say about it: NICE!! I like it,as nice as Gundam Seed and Gundam Destiny...The theme songs are nice,the story line is nice too,and i like the four gundam meister: Setsuna,Lockon,Allelujah and Tiera...

Its plot copied from http://www.animenewsnetwork.com/encyclopedia/anime.php?id=8190:

It is the year A.D. 2307. Fossil fuels on Earth have been depleted entirely, with mankind turning to the next available power source: solar energy. During this time, 3 orbital elevators with solar power generation systems are built, each under control by the Union of Solar Energy and Free Nations (formerly United States of America), the Human Reform League (Russia, China and India) and the Advanced European Union. However, not all countries are able to enjoy the benefits of this system, leading to widespread resentment and war. Arising out of the conflict, a mysterious military organization known as Celestial Being appears, dedicated to end all warfare using Mobile Suits called Gundam. This begins the stories of Gundam Meisters (pilots) Setsuna F. Seiei, Lockon Stratos, Allelujah Haptism and Tiera Erde as they are thrown into conflict between the 3 superpowers and the various other factions.

Forgive?

2008-03-06T20:15:00.008+08:00

Just deleted 1 post from here.-.-"About the love matter btwn he n I...Deleting it,because i showed all of my sadness,and also my weekness in that post...
Suddenly i don't feel like want to show these feeling to others...A bit shameful,for me...=.=

Now,i'm wondering 1 thing, forgive him or not?i don't know...Can i still believe at him?Aih...

Forgive?Or don't?

Horoscope-love

2008-03-06T17:47:00.012+08:00

Just copied from 1 of my e-mail.View our personalities (especially towards love) by our horoscope.Just ignore it if you don't believe in it.But it may be quite accurate.
I'm Leo!!I'm satisfied with the description about Leo below,as almost all the things stated are positive.Hehe!

VIRGO - The One that Waits Dominant in relationships.
Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only.

SCORPIO - The Addict EXTREMELY adorable.
Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humour. Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring.

LIBRA - The Lame One Nice to everyone they meet.
Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with... u might end up crying...

ARIES - The Liar Outgoing.
Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, Addictive. Loud.

AQUARIUS - Does It In The Water Trustworthy.
Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out.

GEMINI - Irresistible Nice.
Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in the you know where... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

LEO - The Lion Great talker.
Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.

CANCER - The Cutie MOST AMAZING KISSER.
Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.

PISCES - The Partner for Life Caring and kind.
Smart. Canter of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humour!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover Love to bust.
Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.

TAURUS - The Tramp Aggressive.
Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth!

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One Spontaneous.
High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in the you know where..!!! Not the kind of person you wanna mess with- you might end up crying.

My Horoscope:

Thank you

2008-03-02T00:04:00.012+08:00

The only purpose of writing this post is to thank all 9 of my friends for treating me the dinner just now, although the probability for them to read my blog is extremely low,as i do not even mention to them i'm having a blog. -.-"

However, i really feel touched... All of them r so kind. Thank you, 9 of you!! yesterday(basically just now) is not my birthday, i just went out wif my friends to celebrate KKS's birthday,but since i'm a very stingy(=.=) girl normally, and i looked like a bitter gourd when i heard the price for this dinner, plus i seemed to be so suffered when eating, they decided to treat me for it... i was really shocked...Ya, Shocked!!As i'm not a special 1 for them, and they are willing 2 spend $$ on me...And this dinner costed about RM50/person...

But,undeniably they all are gentlemen...hehe!They r only admitted by me as gentlemen aft treating me, m i realistic?=.=

Btw, thanks to 9 of them for one more time... I'm touched!!

Lyrics-Boulevard of Broken Dreams

2008-03-01T11:38:00.005+08:00

Boulevard of broken dreams
Green day

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone I walk alone
I walk alone and I walk a-
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Till then I'll walk alone
Ah..ah..
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk aloneI walk alone
I walk aloneI walk alone and I walk a-
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Till then I'll walk alone
Ah..ah..
I walk alone and I walk a-
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a-
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Till then I'll walk alone

I like this song, and like its lyrics 2... Maybe it's because i'm attracted 2 d words 'broken dreams'. I also don't understand the reason. I just know that these 2 words have touched my heart since the 1st time i saw them. Have i got broken dreams? I think so. Everyone will have their own broken dreams... We ran for our dreams, then we found that it was really tough, then we gave up, then we lost our dreams... Then we drooped our head to the reality. We all are the slaves under the real existance of this world.

I want to be stronger

2008-02-28T09:45:00.006+08:00

I want to be stronger, in every aspect of mine, especially my personality. I hate my pusillanimity so much, but I’m so helpless that I can’t control myself to be like this. Aih…

I try my best to apply for scholarship recently. Last year, I applied for jpa scholarship, but at the last minute before I went for interview, I shrank from it… I found so many reasons for my escape, but I knew, from the deep end of my heart I knew, I escaped because I’m chicken, timid chicken… I’m afraid of going for interview… I’m really scared of it! It’s one of the most regrettable things in my life, because I never tried it before I gave it up.

Now, I’m studying foundation at UTAR. My dad is spending a lot of $$ on me, I keep lamenting for it. But what can I do now? I can’t change anything already. Quit UTAR? It’s a tough decision for me. The best thing I can do now is to get the best scholarship that is applicable for me. So, I can ‘t shrink from the interview again. I have to face it, go for it, and get the scholarship, although I still have no much confidence… I will try my best! Gambatea!!

This is who I am...

2008-02-20T16:16:00.004+08:00

A friend's comment to me:

"Apprearance : fair, thin, middle height
My impression: hardworking person, intelligent [:)], nice..! actually i dun really noe her well... but i think she's fun when she's with her frens... kinda shy to other ppl i guess... anyways... i think she's sweet n responsible too... somebody u can rely one when u need help n an ear to listen.. get to know her!!! everybody! including me.. hehe..."

She posted this comment on friendster in year 2004, and i just realised it recently, right after 4 years. We have been in the same class for 5 years, but we don't really know each other, until now. This is a failure, i know. However, surprisingly, she understands me quite well. Some of the statements she made are so true, such as 'but i think she's fun when she's with her frens... kinda shy to other ppl i guess... '. Yea... this is who I am.

Ya, her name is evelyn.

友情，需要用心经营

2008-02-20T09:42:00.003+08:00

有一个朋友，我不喜欢他，我身边几乎所有认识他的人都不喜欢他。每次他找我时，我都不理他，或敷衍了事。。。几年后的现在，终于，他也发飙了，暗讽了我几句后，就断了联系。我不爽，但扪心自问，我从不愿放真心在我与他的友情上，他有他生气的权力。我有错在先，吧?

另一个朋友，我并没有不喜欢他，他是个好人，但我也不懂为何，潜意识中就是要和他保持距离。所以他每次找我时，我同样会让他吃羹。我不懂他会怎样想，会不会觉得我很嚣。。。虽然我这样对朋友是很过分，但我无法控制我的潜意识呀。。。

Semester break, 我在猫城，我的家乡。我常常都和以前中学时期的五个死党出来喝茶闲聊。但我们都觉得我们之间的话题越来越少了。。。是呀!如今我们都各有各的路要走，由一条大道分岔成六条，交集点也越来越少。我在想，有一天我们会不会变成淡淡的点头之交呢? 心里带着轻轻的遗憾与无可耐何!

最近在friendster中add了以前小学时的朋友，却没被对方接受。悲呀!他们应该是记不得我了吧! 我就那么地无法让人留下印象吗?

友情，本就需要我们去用心经营。一段没有真心的友情，脆弱得可怜，虚伪得可悲。我自认是这方面的弱者与失败者，因为，我放的‘心’ ，不够。。。